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I Don’t think I’d say life is smooth sailing but…
Seems this time everyone is on one side or the other when it comes to my illnesses. I just want everyone to be happy. Easy to say. Not so easy to do. Family should always be close. But sometimes our...
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Ouchies – no actually this is real f**kin bad hurties
So today I woke up at 5am with full on TN attack it gave me about 30 secs to a couple of minutes relief tilll the next grab. Lasted till just after 6 and it’s still on and off. F**kin unbearable. No...
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Keeping on track
So I went to see my therapist today. It was ok. I told her about my worries of the RRV and the stress I’m having eating, drinking, sleeping. She showed me the big picture again and helped me put...
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S**t Happens
I’ve had a hard couple of days mentally. Seems It’s not easy as I thought this getting better business. Struggling hard after I wake up to separate dream from reality. This plays a nasty part of my...
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Jeebus, it’s never ending
So I wake up at 6am again Throwing my guts up. I think it’s just nerves for the coming day. Well amazingly. I woke up after a few!!! benzo and a beer. Yeah I’ve lived through more then that. I can’t...
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Another Beach trip
Running half an hour late to meet friends at the beach. It’s me who procrastinates now. I checked everything in the house to make sure it was locked and everything was turned off. I checked over and...
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TN is drivin me nuts
Im getting about 30 to 100 attacks a day I barely get any relief. I really hope the doc can help me. It’s sux a pity the Tegretol didn’t work. hot cold absoluttey nothing works. Only cutting but its...
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My Afternoon Post (Personal drug ratings)
So from 4pm the pain got so intense i gave into drugs. 200mg sr an 2x1oomg of tramadol 2x500mg paracetamol,10mg valium. This mix seems to work best of what I’ve got but it still doesn’t stop nightmares...
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Back from Hospital (again)
So I woke up yesterday after a terrible night of nightmares. Decided I’d had enough I wish there was no conflict in my family and we could all accept each other and get along. It seems that is the...
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7:17am – Am I ever gonna sleep (day 3)
Well once again I took my meds for sleeping I drank milk till the cows left. That was about 9 last night. I gave up trying to sleep at 3am. I was hyper, paranoid n yeh pretty crazy. So I promised my...
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Still no hope from hospital
Well last few days have been a haze of pain and depression. I needed to get help from my local hospital. I waited for a while in the waiting room got my blood pressure done. Then later had some blood...
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New Crisis Centre
So I called up a new crisis centre number because I’ve had the black cloud for a number of days now. They didn’t make me feel bad. They talked me through a few things. Without being rude to me or...
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Still waiting…
I’m still waiting for an answer back from my doctor as to weather I can change medications now. I really need to as I have little balance anymore. I can only dance for a short amount of time and there...
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Wake up in pain again!!!
Not the TN but that all over body/joint aching pain. I can’t stand it. Still trying to dance an hour a day if I can (hurts alot) But it one of the only things I have that will cheer me up any time. My...
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Family Failure
I have always been an academic failure, Now the light has shone on the fact I am the biggest family failure to occur. To the left I have my Older Bro he’s cool he has a wife and a beautiful family a...
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A week too long in Hospital
I initially went in there because my doc wanted me to get my abdominal pain checked out after a few minutes of arriving they admitted me to the short stay operating ward. By this time I was pretty sure...
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Doctors,doctors and more doctors.
I have had many mris and mre scans? can’t remember. Allergy tests, consultations on brain surgery which always ends up the same – “sorry the aneurysm is to close to the brain stem and we can’t fix it...
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Staying up, sleeping all day
It’s when I wake in the morning and realize I have no reason to wake up. I am bored with this planet and sick of my nerves getting in the way of me doing anything, I’ll never make it, these thoughts...
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My Mind Has a Sign For Me –‘Enter at Own Risk’
I don’t know why I could guess it’s the day-mares (day nightmares) I’m awake but these terrible thing memories play back in my mind, I worry about affecting the future of myself or others by doing...
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Run for The Biggest Hills
While I wait for DBT to start, (Suggested and helped by M) I am looking for one on one therapy. Again I find a therapist I really thought I could get along with she was also only a skateboard ride away...
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